I keep thinking about all my “best laid” plans to get back to blogging full time. For some reason they keep getting derailed. First, my blog got hacked and I had to completely wipe it out and start fresh…which actually ended up being a benefit as I like the new blog design much better, so I can definitely see the good that came from the bad. Then after I got it all set up and ready to go, I broke my hand…my right hand…so I couldn’t really type for quite a few weeks. For someone who likes to have her life all planned out, those surprises can throw me for a loop. But I also think about quitting and failure and grace.
I am a pretty stubborn person by nature. I am easy-going and very patient, but when I set my mind to something, I’m going to figure out how to do it. There are times this serves me well and times it doesn’t. Sometimes, we do need to quit. And it’s not a failure. Sometimes, what we are doing is not the best for us or our family. It’s not going to move us closer to our dreams and goals. It’s in those times, we need to have the courage to quit. To lay down what might be good, for what is best (more of my thoughts on this are here if you missed it). We can’t count that as a failure when we choose to stop doing things that don’t move us forward. But there are those times when we know we are doing something that we love, that we want to be part of our lives, that we know in our heart of hearts is moving us toward our dreams…and we keep getting off-track.
As a planner, I hate to feel like I’m derailing….like I’m heading off in a direction opposite (or even alongside, but still not on) the path I’m supposed to be following. Do you ever feel like that? Like you can see the place you’re supposed to be walking, but you realize you are not on that road? It’s easy to get down on ourselves, to feel like failures, to wonder if we’ll ever be able to get back to that road we need to be on. And that’s when we need grace.
We are often harder on ourselves than others are. We feel like we just can’t start over one.more.time. What will people think? Why can’t I just keep it together? What is my problem that I keep wandering off the path?
It takes courage to step out on the road toward our dreams. It takes grace to allow ourselves to see that we have wandered off and instead of giving up, we march ourselves back onto that road once again.
I am learning to give myself grace. A planner, who is a perfectionist, has a hard time with that. But I’m also a single mom, homeschooling her kids, working full time from home…and so sometimes, I wander off Dream Road…or get dragged off by Life. I’m figuring out how to give myself grace to say “It’s ok to be off-track; now let’s get back on it”.
Have you been dragged off Dream Road lately? If so, I encourage you to, first, give yourself grace to not be perfect all the time, to not always have it all together. Then, have the courage to march back over and start walking that road toward your dreams once again. We can do this!!